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Whoops, guess it's been ages since I've updated with an entry. As usual, it's night time and a time to reflect on the past months. I've been busy lately with work. The new job's seen me flying around more often than before but all's good as the daily allowance is good money. Especially since I seem to spend more nowadays.

On the relationship front, it's still nadah. I've recently been dating two girls as in putting serious consideration to thinking how to make it work. But somehow things aren't going as good as I hoped. I wonder whether anyone whose gone through life with a reasonable amount of time will experience the same feelings or thoughts as I have. Now this is something that has always been through my mind. How many people out there has the same thoughts and experiences as me. Which is partly the reason why I chose this blog's title. Ok, that's sidetracking. What I wanted to say is that nowadays when I see or encounter certain new events in life, I tend to be able to "predict", some may call it that whilst others may call it "think too much", how certain things will end up. I have to say in both occurences while going out with these two girls, I've seen certain less than ideal circumstances. Of course I've long heard of the saying of thinking less and going with your heart but a leopard can never change its spots. I am a man of pragmatism. I've always went with my mind and that is probably my greatest failing.

So it is now with these two girls. One I seen instability while the other incompatibility. Perhaps I should go back to the safety of my cave and enjoy or rather rot in my freedom. I have no answer as of yet and as usual one can never tell the future. Or perhaps I should hold out for a better fit to come along. Hell knows I've been single for so long does it really matter. In any case, I'll have to wait and see what the future holds for me as usual. Incoherent thoughts as usual.

On other fronts, I am trying to gain back my fitness. I've been trying to run on a regular basis. To think that I used to be so fit and marathons would not be a problem. Now with the growing belly or "wealth" tummy as some would call it, I am loath to see myself turn into a middle age pot bellied Uncle. Though in recent days, that's what my friends have started to call me. Let's hope my discipline kicks in and I'm able to go carry out my plans.

Oh, interestingly over the weekend I went to a kind of SDU event. My friend got the invites and asked me along. This is not something that I usually go to. Nay, this is not something I go to at all. I don't like to subject myself to the desperation of growing old single. And this is exactly what I saw in the event. Desperation? Too strong a word? But that is what I saw. Grown men and women putting in their last ditch effort to know someone who might rescue them from a life of loneliness. Plus the fact that there were alot of misfits in their midst. I didn't want to say it out loud in front of my friend that I think all the people there who went can't make it as I was afraid I'll hurt his feelings should he think that I was refering to him. But those were my thoughts. I know I am biased but I can't help but think these people are odd. Some of them probably have great personalities but I am not about to find out. I am sure karma exist and sometimes I think that my long standing singlehood is probably karma's way of getting back at me for laughing at all of them. Oh well, Karma 1 Me 0 then.

Ok, this is getting abit long. Let's see when's my next entry will be. Good night Singapore.